Waking up and going on..

Getting up on the wrong side of the bed, literally for someone else.

We all have been there. Today was an important day for me. i had a very positive image of day when i went to sleep. God has its plans.

Everything was delayed, beginning with Navratri's puja. i didn't had complete set of papers for my appointment at Embassy, friend who had threw tanturms in the morning and was running late. Thankfully we made it on time but a small scene was created out of nowhere on the basic courtesy of individuals! This doesn't stop here. When i stepped out, friend couldn't be located as he conveiently took off with my stuff. i had no money, cell phone. Stranded.

Somehow i managed to get an autorickshaw, who were quoting obnoxiously insane fares to go to office. All the way i was thinking on how to pay the autorickshaw driver. As i reached closer to desitination, i requested to use his cell phone to make a call to my office. We are only at 11:30 AM.

i was never so glad to be back in office, as i was today :-)

Once settled, i called up the friend to let him know my whereabouts. He said he's on way. i was excited to share the news! An hour later, he calls asking me to have the stuff collected from parking as he's not interested in meeting me. Definitely. i should't be expecting miracles today, or should i not? After all, i believe that only good things happen to good souls ;-)

Well, returned home to get some work done. It was my brother's birthday as well and i was hoping for some silver lining to the day. Alas. This was also not to be. No cake. No sweets. Some more tears. 

Its another day tomorrow.. 

Love. Life.

हर किसी को मुक़मल जहान नहीं मिलता।  किसी को ज़मी तो किसी को आसमां नहीं मिलता।

almost an year that i got here. its that time of the year again when winters are starting to set in, weather is comfortable to step out and have a cup of nice cappuccino!

if one maintains a dairy then every year has its moments. while i got myself to write, i thought this is most eventful year however, last year also seemed to quite a journey. how? i just read my own blog after an year!!

Year began with an exciting visit to neighborhood country, totally unplanned but fab. i ended up celebrating my b'day with totally new set of people whom i had not known before 5-days. i agree that they are nice, and i'm friends with one of the girls! no one came to receive me from the airport on my b'day where i spent 1.5 hours in taxi queue, reaching home with an empty feeling. yes, i know i should count my blessings :-)

then happened two-year awaited trip to Hong Kong. it was delightfully beautiful - met my coworkers. diverse cultures always fascinates me! i returned with loads of memories and shopping ;-) And this time i had someone waiting for me at the airport :-*, as usual with complaints which i don't let me affect.

discounts can make you buy those items that you don't need immediately, correct? i landed up planning a trip to faraway religious destination just because i was getting a deal. this again had its bitter sweet moments - relationship maintenance is tough!

i think life has given me fair share of challenges.

भगवान साक्षी हैं मेरी सच्चाई का।

Love is

what makes you smile when you are tired :-)

Strange as it may sound about smile today. i have had some real tough weeks in last few months. Plans not working out, relationships with myself on all time low. i decided to pull myself out, few steps and again its same story. Being an achiever, i don't want to give up. i love life with all its variations, colors, quirkiness, kindness and smiles.

i'm going to be in more touch with myself, doing things that make me want to live so that there's no space for anything soul challenging. There are no explanations, its just me!

Last month of Year, last trip to City

i have some of the beautiful memories from 2013, like trip to finance capital, weddings in family, new set of wheels, vacation in valley of flowers, camping with adventure activities at Nahan, Diwali with a difference, going to school after 18 years to watch a sports day...wow!! i count my blessings and looking forward to closing the year with a smile as well :-)

There's disappointment too, not from the year but myself who relentless put efforts in giving shape to dreams but failed. After so many years of professional working, i have neither energy nor resources left for dare to dream - either to set up a new venture or trust in relationships. This year has had its share of people moving away without communicating, relationships becoming demanding without improving. i love being with happy souls - everyone does! Its an empty feeling now and i will be working perhaps to pull myself together for New Year with a belief of everything turning out just fine :-)

This city has been instrumental in broadening my perspective, and the two and half years that were spent visiting are holding some secrets. Last year i suffered a crash, and this year too i'm witnessing one. Both are emotional - one personal and other professional, but devastating as it is. i don't think i'm willing to allow myself further burning and is almost ready to call it a day. Wish me best!!

Diwali weekend

This weekend is as interesting as expected. Someone has correctly said - Thoughts become Things. We sometimes identify it as intuition too.

Travelling to another city for gifts, change of place so far has been fulfilling. i haven't gone to any market, not shopped neither had pleasant days - why you may ask. Reason is simple. Even before i had actually started journey, somewhere, it was on mind that trip is going to be everything, except for meeting expectations :-)

Nov 2012

Never before was I cheated,
Never before was I dishonored,
Never before was I alone,
As i'm now.

Never before door was locked,
Never before eyes were wet,
Never before love was lost,
As it is now.

God send

i had one of the best weekend - my type, full of fun, frolic, adventure activities, water splashing and most importantly close to nature, away from crowd.

This was one of the break that was well planned, and i was hoping to have good quality time. However, man proposes and God disposes. With good amount of tantrums thrown in, trip started with a tear in eye. Various thoughts kept the mind conversation going. We reached the beautiful place and i decided to soak in as much. Water stream had a calming effect :-)

Soon after breakfast, activities started. Since most of team members were participating first time in adventure sports, i was asked to go first on rope ladder! It was mind-blowing - completely! An act of balance, i made good fun of myself with the gymnastic! A mind opener for me - just after i touched ground, my faith in God got even stronger .My belief reinstated that no matter what life treats you with, supreme being is watching you and is going to take care, when everyone else refuses!

Rest of the stay was all good, with the conviction is God staying with me throughout then, and in times to come!