Love is

what makes you smile when you are tired :-)

Strange as it may sound about smile today. i have had some real tough weeks in last few months. Plans not working out, relationships with myself on all time low. i decided to pull myself out, few steps and again its same story. Being an achiever, i don't want to give up. i love life with all its variations, colors, quirkiness, kindness and smiles.

i'm going to be in more touch with myself, doing things that make me want to live so that there's no space for anything soul challenging. There are no explanations, its just me!

Last month of Year, last trip to City

i have some of the beautiful memories from 2013, like trip to finance capital, weddings in family, new set of wheels, vacation in valley of flowers, camping with adventure activities at Nahan, Diwali with a difference, going to school after 18 years to watch a sports day...wow!! i count my blessings and looking forward to closing the year with a smile as well :-)

There's disappointment too, not from the year but myself who relentless put efforts in giving shape to dreams but failed. After so many years of professional working, i have neither energy nor resources left for dare to dream - either to set up a new venture or trust in relationships. This year has had its share of people moving away without communicating, relationships becoming demanding without improving. i love being with happy souls - everyone does! Its an empty feeling now and i will be working perhaps to pull myself together for New Year with a belief of everything turning out just fine :-)

This city has been instrumental in broadening my perspective, and the two and half years that were spent visiting are holding some secrets. Last year i suffered a crash, and this year too i'm witnessing one. Both are emotional - one personal and other professional, but devastating as it is. i don't think i'm willing to allow myself further burning and is almost ready to call it a day. Wish me best!!